08.07.18

Cancer Caregivers: Spouse Perspective Part II

“One is the loneliest number . . .” begins a popular 1960’s song by Three Dog Night.

But 2 can be the loneliest number when your spouse has cancer.

Treatments left Cindy* and her husband stranded at home and away from family and friends in order to keep germs and illness at bay. “My husband and I were such social people, and suddenly we didn’t have the same lifestyle anymore. It was incredibly isolating and I was constantly conflicted and guilty when I would get together with friends.”

Cancer Changes a Marriage

Caring for a spouse with cancer is an emotionally traumatic experience. “I would look at (my wife) when she was down to 100 pounds due to treatments and I could see every one of her ribs. You can’t un-see something like that.” Chris* shares. “You set aside being romantic in order to focus on the urgent things,” he states. For Chris, an amicable divorce has allowed his wife to focus on a few key roles in her life—one of them being a cancer survivor.

Cindy found that physical intimacy in her marriage suffered because of her husband’s cancer. “Nobody talks about the physical intimacy issues, and that just wasn’t there—my husband just didn’t have the energy for it.”

For Henry*, his marriage is stronger now than it was before his wife was diagnosed. “We both appreciate each other more. We’ve faced the ultimate test and gotten stronger.” This is also true for Tayvon*. “Cancer has made us better and we’ve dropped some of the behaviors that we found irksome.”

Personal Changes

When Henry’s wife was diagnosed, “I was in a job that I didn’t like much. Seeing what my wife when through and understanding what a real challenge is, has changed my perspective.”

For Tayvon, “I’ve figured out what is important and prioritized this by creating a circle: I try not to give a (darn) about what (I’ve put) on the outside (of the circle), but focus on the family and people we really want to spend time with on the inside.”

You are not alone

“After my husband passed away,” describes Ann, “I felt like I was dying. I would stay at work all day to numb the pain. My friends noticed and helped me through.”

Tayvon sought the help of a professional counselor and peer support through Jack’s Caregiver Coalition to “find people who truly understand what’s going on, to see the commitment of other caregivers to their spouses, and to help me ask for help.”

It may seem that support groups and programs exist only for those going through cancer and its treatment. However, there are local resources specifically for caregivers:

Online resources exist as well.

“My husband’s death due to cancer struck home in the closest way possible.” shares Ann. “I was reminded once again that we are all mortal and that I need to do the best I can with what time I have left.”

Thank you to the brave men and women who shared their caregiving experience for this blog. We are incredibly grateful for their honesty, candor and willingness to “go public” in order to help others that find themselves in a similar situation.

*Names have been changed to protect confidentiality.

Written by Amy Tix, Firefly Staffer and breast cancer survivor, whose own relationship with her husband changed drastically when diagnosed with breast cancer 11+ years ago.

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